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Title: Is There A Reason To Stay?
Pairing: SHINee/f(x)
Rating: G
Genre: Romance/Angst
Summary: And they all know that one day, they’ll all be happy with each other. It just wasn’t today.
A/N: First attempt on a SHINee/f(x) fic. :D I had three tries with Keyber and a long time before I finished the Taelli one, but I managed to go through it all. \:D/ :)) I'm hoping I don't disappoint, but I think it's a little mediocre. :-j Well, anyway. Here you go! :) :D :))
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It all happened in one place, and once place only. It could’ve been Italy, Paris, or Tokyo. But, no. It only happened in one place, and they all knew where that was.

1. Ontoria

S – Sorry

“I’m sorry…”

He stopped on his tracks to look at her. She was always so beautiful, so flawless. She was perfect to him. And he knew he could feel little butterflies in his stomach whenever they were together.

“Why?”

She continued walking, partly because she was afraid of how he would react to what she was going to say, and partly because she knew he was going to follow her. He always did, and always will.

And so he started walking again.

“I haven’t been fair lately.”

“With?”

And just when he was about to catch up on her, she turns around (eyes all puffy because she’s obviously been crying the whole walk, but he just pretended not to notice) and bites her lip.

“I know, Onew.”

“Know? What about?”

“I’m sorry. I’m still not over him. I know how it hurts to hear me say it, but I can’t keep hurting you in that way anymore. I want you to know how thankful I am for everything, for always being there but…I’m just not over him. Call me stupid and whatever. But…I just can’t. Not yet. In time I will, but right now it just hurts too much and—”

He cuts her off like he usually does when she starts to cry, because it ached so much seeing her hurt. He wraps his arms around her fragile figure and lets her stain his shirt with her tears, because that’s what he’s always been. Supportive, like a good friend should.

“It’s okay, V. I can wait.”

His heart shatters at his own words, but he lets it be.

He does because he knows she’ll heal someday. And someday, it’ll be her and him, like it’s always meant to be.


2. Minstal

E - Expectation

“I’ve done everything, Krys. What more do you need?”

“I’m not asking for anything.”

He screwed up, big time. Good news: He knew it was his fault. Bad news: She still didn’t forgive him.

“I’ve given you everything.”

“I didn’t want everything.”

He ran his hand at his perfectly groomed hair that got messed up with the gesture. He gave her chocolates, flowers, sang her a song that he himself composed, dinner at an expensive restaurant (well almost, before she walked out), a life-sized teddy bear, all the gifts a girl could possibly imagine and even did effort to remake Romeo and Juliet’s balcony scene. But she still didn’t budge.

“What do I have to do for you to forgive me? What do you expect me to do? I’ve done so much effort to make it work again, but you just won’t do it! I love you, Krystal, and you know that. I’m sorry, but I can’t give the whole world to you. Honestly, what more do I have to do for you to be satisfied?”

She stopped and looked at him straight in the eyes. He sensed hurt in them, and saw a little tear stream down her perfectly white cheeks. He immediately regretted that he was the one who caused it.

“Try to think a little, Minho. I didn’t expect you to give anything. I just wanted a simple sorry, is all. But you couldn’t even give me that.”

He could hear his heart breaking into tiny little pieces.

She just wanted a simple five-letter word. And it was the only thing he didn’t even think of giving.


3. Keyber

O – Over

“Key, what the hell are we doing?”

She asks him one day when they’re at somewhere secluded so no one could see.

“What do you mean?”

She knew he knew exactly what she meant, but avoided (more like refused) to talk about it because he didn’t want what they had to end yet. No, not yet when he’s so broken and unwanted by another.

“This. Us. We’ve been hiding because you’re afraid to tell her about whatever the hell we have. This little affair…it’s not good anymore.”

It never was, actually. But it didn’t seem so complicated at first. She was there every time his girlfriend made him sad. She was his source of happiness and his inspiration, something his so-called girlfriend could never give. They were friends (best friends, in fact) with benefits, and neither had a problem with that.

Well, that was before she knew that she was falling head over heels in love with him and she really wasn’t sure if he felt the same.

“Since when has an affair been good, Amber?”

He smirked, but this time it didn’t work on her like it usually did. She was really serious. Her next question was a bit of a shock to him, so he didn’t really know what to answer.

“Do you love me?”

“I—what?”

“Do you love me?”

He opened his mouth and closed it again, not really knowing what to answer.

“Amber, I—I do, but…”

“Wrong answer, Key. You don’t.”

“Wait, what?”

He was downright confused, but something in him kind of understood what she just said.

“If you did, you would’ve left her and stayed with me. But you didn’t, and you still wouldn’t. You aren’t leaving her anytime soon. So guess what?”

He didn’t speak because he was lost for words and he knew what she was going to say.

“I’ll leave. If you won’t leave her, then I will. I’m done with this Key, it’s over. I want to be with you so badly…but not like this.”

She stroked his cheek and left, just like that.

He knew his heart screamed her name, but he just couldn’t bring himself to say it to her.


4. Jongna

U – Understand

He missed her comeback stage, to which he promised he would be there at the back, cheering her on. He missed her recording session, even though he said he would be there so she wouldn’t get so nervous. He missed their scheduled dance lesson when he said he was going to teach her a few simple steps to their new song.

He almost missed their Valentines’ Day Date. He didn’t, but he was an hour late.

“I’m sorry, rehearsal went a little long and we couldn’t find enough time to reschedule it—”

“It’s okay, Jjong. Catch your breath first.”

He was stressed and late. It was one of those things that came with dating him. She didn’t mind that much. She was used to it, actually. It kind of hurt at times, but she loved him and didn’t want to lose him and she knew perfectly well he felt the same.

He missed their 1st month anniversary. And their 2nd, and 3rd and 4th and she stopped counting after that because she didn’t see the point in counting. It was better to count blessings anyway. She had a boyfriend that loved her. And that was more than enough blessing she needed.

It was the busiest day of all the busy days for him, but he was kind of relieved there wasn’t anything special that day, which meant she wouldn’t mind if he was a little bit late. He saw her waiting at the hall way, looking down at the grey carpeted ground and stood in front of her.

“Hey.”

She looked up.

“Hey?”

And he knew he did something wrong again, like he always does these days.

“Oh god. What did I do?”

Tears started forming in her eyes, but she refused to let them fall. She didn’t want him to see her so weak and…vulnerable.

But she couldn’t stop them.

“Just this day. You can’t even remember this day?”

He racked the gears of his brain to remember what this day was, but it was no use. He had no idea. She noticed that, so she spoke up.

“Today’s my birthday, Jjong…and our one year anniversary.”

He literally wanted to kill himself.

“Luna…I didn’t—I mean. I didn’t know, and our schedule, it was…I’m sorry. You have to understand—”

“Understand? Understand what? I’ve done nothing but understand. I understood why you were always late, why you always didn’t show up, why you always had to break every single promise. I understood them all. But I’m tired, Jjong. I can’t do this anymore. And now, it’s time for you to understand why right now, I have to go. I’m sorry.”

She turned around and left him standing there, heart torn in two. Then three, and four and he stopped counting after that because he knew he couldn’t count to infinity.


5. Taelli

L – Love

“I love you, Sulli.”

She stopped laughing, removed his arms from her waist and turned around to face him. She had an unexplainable expression that he couldn’t decipher or decode in any kind of way. He was scared. Then he thought, maybe he shouldn’t have said it yet.

“You—what did you say?”

He took a deep breath, brushed his fringe away from covering his eyes and smiled weakly.

“I said I love—”

“No, don’t say it again.”

She started to feel nervous, he could tell. Her sunshine smile disappeared and she started walking away from him towards the door. But he didn’t want her to leave, not just yet. He wanted to explain first (or at least clear things).

“Sulli, was there something wrong with what I said?”

Her eyes were filled with worry, but his had more in it. He didn’t know what was wrong about saying those three words. In fact, those three words (as he did know) were the words that a girl longed to hear.

“I’m not—”

And it hit him like a ton of bricks or a big yellow school bus, or a train going something miles per hour and he couldn’t really think of any more metaphors now so he just settled for those.

“You don’t…feel the same?”

“Tae, I like you, but…”

“But…”

He chuckled disappointingly. He knew where this was going. And it wasn’t going anywhere good.

“Well, that word’s never good.”

“I’m just…not sure if I, you know, “love” you.”

His heart ripped inside his chest and it hurt so much that he wanted to just take it out and throw it away in the nearest garbage can. Then he thought he was such a failure for always ruining things.

“Right, I’m sorry. I didn’t know.”

He smiled weakly and she reached out for him, but quickly pulled away her hand. Her lip started quivering, and he knew she was about to cry. She usually did this when she thought she did something wrong or bad. He couldn’t bear to see that.

He ran to wrap her in his muscular arms as she took a deep breath to stop herself from tearing.

“It’s not your fault, Sulli. I shouldn’t have said that, and I’m not forcing you to love me. Just tell me when you’re ready and maybe we can work things out then.”

He looked at her again, and she had worried eyes. She was scared. She was scared if she was ever going to be ready. She was scared if she was enough. She was scared of what was going to happen. But she smiled and hugged him back.

He was a hundred times more scared than her, even. But he was willing to take that risk, if it was for her.

--
He’ll wait for her to get over another.

He’ll say the right words from now on.

He’ll finally tell her how he feels.

He’ll be a better boyfriend this time around.

He’ll tell her those words when she’s ready.

Because of all the places anyone could ever dream of thinking, it all happened there. Not at the City of Lights, or the City of Dreams, or the City of Love.

No, it happened in a city close to home. In fact, it was home. And they all know that one day, they’ll all be happy with each other. It just wasn’t today. But that didn’t matter.

Because they’ll always have Seoul.
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Kinda thought I'd do drabbles since I'm not really in the right state of mind to make full fics yet. :))
Comments are much appreciated. ♥

P.S. I'll be working on making a fanfic community soon! :)

Date: 2011-05-09 11:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kazuka076.livejournal.com
aw <3
it's so rare and hard to find a writer who loves all of shiny effects pairs TT especially ontoria and jongna ones .__.
Ontoria catches my love for the most <333

Date: 2011-05-09 01:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chocolatecrack.livejournal.com
Definitely rare. T____T People usually write about Khuntoria and Lunew ones (not that I'm against these pairings) so I think Ontoria and Jongna need a little bit of love. ♥♥ I really think Jonghyun and Luna really fit each other. :) And Onew and Victoria would be so cute together. ^^

Date: 2011-05-09 12:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] scarredknees.livejournal.com
i'm really in love with how you ended it. so creative! <3
i really enjoyed reading these, especially the taemin/sulli one. (:

Date: 2011-05-09 02:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chocolatecrack.livejournal.com
Aww, thanks! ♥ Glad you liked it! :) :D I couldn't make the Taemin/Sulli as sad as the others because they were too cute for sadness. ^^ XDD

Date: 2011-05-09 03:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] xion20.livejournal.com
These were really nice. I'm so glad I found a shinee/f(x) fic. It's been so long since I read one.

Brilliant plot and writing. There were a few errors I spotted, but it was still really great, nonetheless. :D Loved the Minstal, Keyber, and Taelli the most <3

And hey, we live in the same country! :))

Date: 2011-05-09 04:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chocolatecrack.livejournal.com
People haven't been posting shinee/f(x) nowadays. :( So I decided to write one to contribute to the fandom. :D

Yea, I spotted some too after I posted it. I'm sorry. ^^; But I'm glad you still you loved them! :) My personal favorite's the Taelli one too, because they were so cute in it. ^^

Yay! A Filipino Fan! \:D/ Hello there! :-h :))

Date: 2011-05-11 01:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] xion20.livejournal.com
I'm glad you posted it. I was craving for some recently :))

It's okay to make errors. They were very minor, anyway :D Lol, your fic made me love Taelli a little more. Minstal is my fave :>

Hi, I haven't seen much Filipinos around here in LJ, aside from my friends. Glad to meet you! :D

Date: 2011-05-11 04:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chocolatecrack.livejournal.com
I actually have one more along the way. And it's shinee/f(x) too! :D Not quite done yet though, since I've only finished Keyber's and Minstal's. :)) And I've started with the Taelli. :D

Taelli is just too cute to resist. ♥ I started shipping Minstal the moment I saw their video of the sports competition. Then Juliette, then.. yea. :"> :))

Yea, me too. I only know my friends. And aside from them, I haven't met a lot so it's good that I met another one! :D :)

Date: 2011-05-10 01:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dellayea.livejournal.com
omg shinee effexts <3 i love you for writing this! ;D

Date: 2011-05-10 03:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chocolatecrack.livejournal.com
Aww, thanks! :D I hoped you liked it! :) ^^

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